blog 16

i am still stuggleing on the idea of how some girls find me attractive and i mean good looking girls looking at me i mean Me ! while breaking out of my social shell i have been making more friends and more easily now that some of the fear is gone i am able to at least look out side of my pale barrier now i am able to seewhat mistakes i have made during past actions of interacting with people and every mistake is a learning opportunity this made people like me this didnt and so i am able to stop myself some of the time anyway from repeating my mistakes and strands of the shyness still liinger around me enough that i have enough time between thinking something and saying something that i am able to look twice at what i am saying and think to myself...is this realllly a good idea is this realllly a good thing to say?... and durnig those times i am able to quickly come up with a solution to the social situation i am in from talking to saying goodbye to saying hello handshakes head and body movements and where my eyes should be looking with everything in between and after so many mistakes and a lot of learning i have finally managed to pass by as a normal socially acceptible person and have a good time doing it